September is coming!

It's the end of August. My contract is until the 30th of August. But, they have just enough funding to rehire two people for a month. So, on the 8th of September I'll start work again. Until then,I have to practice for the assesment centre. I have to build up my stamina and study Malaysian policies. In October, it's French class and driving lessons. I have planned out everything for the next three months, including outings with friends.
Here are another two conflicting traits. I like to plan everything and have backup plans, just in case. But, I can also call someone at 8a.m. and asking if they want to go out at 10a.m. The spontaneous part doesn't come out very often. My friends are thankful for that.

It's the Olympics again. I've always hated the fact that the time difference would mean I have to stay up late to watch my favorite events; gymnastics and diving. Nowadays, I like to watch all the events, except for football which I've always thought as a boring sport. Also, badminton, I hate that too. Tennis, hockey, water polo, yuck! On second thought, maybe I do still watch only gymnastics. When I was younger, I begged my mother to send me for gymnastics lessons. Now, I can only imagine myself doing cartwheels.

Bad Ideas!

Bad Idea No.1:
Wearing high heeled shoes on examination day.
WHY: You can never get a cab and you have to walk half an hour to the nearest LRT station. By the time you reach home, you can barely walk to your room.

Bad Idea No.2:
Listening to an advice collumnist on ways to get over your crush.
WHY: That rubber band on your wrist is cutting off circulation and your wrist is red from all the snapping you've done all day long. What's worse is that HE's still on your mind 24/7. OUCH!!!!

rubber band

I had just read in the newspaper an advice collumnist telling a reader, a good way to forget someone is to snap a rubber band on any part of the skin everytime she thinks about the person. Maybe I could do that as way to try to forget HIM. But I'll probably end up black and blue still be thinking of HIM day and night. Doesn't hurt to try, right? Ouch!

Scared

This past two months, there has been two helicopter crashes. In July, all the victims died. This week an Airforce helicopter went down, killing three of the ten soldiers on board. I have several friends in the military. But it's only HIM I think of every time I hear news of an aircrash. I'm afraid that one day I'll be reading the paper and see HIS picture with the words "Died in Crash" above it. I know it's just so melodramatic. My imagination is getting the better of me. I used to pray that my imaginings would come true, but this is one I desperately pray will never happen.

Mischief

You know, it's true when people say idle minds will find mischief. I have no social life, apart from some old friends from school. They have been too busy to go out or anything like that. So, I end up with plenty of free time. I've run out of books to read. There is never anything good on tv. All that's left is HIM! All i could think about is HIM. I think of ways how to get him to notice me. I've imagined falling sick and ending up in the hospital. HE will then visit me and finds out HE can't live without me. All the ways I could think of is useless, because HE is incommunicado until HE finishes HIS training. Yes, my dream guy has joined the Airforce. Bad move on HIS part if HE thinks that will put me off. One little secret, I've always had a thing for men in uniform. Anyone with ideas for me?

The MP Syndrome

Have you ever thought that no one in this world knows the real you? I do. If you ask my parents, they'll say I'm stubborn and lazy. Ask my friends from college, they will say that I have a terrible temper but I have a very caring nature. There are those who will say I'm bubbly and fun. There are others who say I'm a snob. Which one is the real me? I don't know. So, readers... you have to suffer the journey with me as I try to figure out who the heck I am.